I've been struggling to get over the mental hurdles. This here post is another step in that direction.
In no particular order here are some thoughts that are pulling me up:
- Aidan told me last night that he wants his next post to be about exercise. He and Clay both ran around the block with me last night before my run. Aidan seemed fascinated by his sweat and his racing heart. After my run he raced around the house, first 6 laps, then 5, then 10. I timed him. He talked about how good he felt all night. My kids are learning from my actions.
- John "the Penguin" Bingham continues to use run/walk intervals.
- This Runners World article was very reassuring.
- The way that I perform in this race will not be the way that I perform in the same race next year.
- I'm doing it.
- I just read Will (the race director's) blog, he wrote:
After the morning meeting, we shot up to Range Pond for a site visit... Seeing the park in the summertime today reaffirmed my initial belief that this is one of the best possible venues for a race. Our goal for this week is to begin marketing the heck out of it around Portland and try to get as many first-timers as possible. I have to admit, though, there is one hill on the bike course that is a beast. The course map and elevation chart will be posted on the website in the next few days.
- I might have to rest during the hill. SO WHAT? It really is a scary hill... it's not just me. It's a freakin' beast.
- Someone has to finish last. If it's me this year, then maybe next year it won't be.
- It's only exercise. I am doing now what I wasn't doing last year. I feel better than I did last year. I gripe about not loving exercise, but I have had some moments on the bike that I have really enjoyed. What I thought might never happen has... I've come to really need exercise. My body will eventually catch us and show improvement.
- Have I mentioned my kids?
- Last, but never least, could my husband BE more supportive?
I think I'm back!